Challenge Day 13: A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days… (write a letter)
Dear Mr. Johnson,
You don’t know me, and you likely never will, but I felt it was important to let you know what you’ve inadvertently done for me.
Some years back I found myself in a very bad headspace. My life had begun to spiral out of control. I was dangerously depressed and having a difficult time relating to people; I’d begun pulling away from everyone and everything. I was desperate and reckless and basically hoping that death would find me because I couldn’t imagine a future when the pain would end, but guilt stilled me from taking my own life. I’d lost myself, you see, and maybe I never really knew myself all that well to begin with. It was somewhere in the midst of this fog that I was introduced to your music, and though I didn’t know what it would do for me then, looking back I can’t help but credit you – at least in part – for the dawn of my age of healing.
Though I am – and have always been – an avid lover of music with varying tastes, I was never all that much into folksy/soft rock as a rule. This makes your contribution to my healing a little ironic. What makes it even more ironic is that you were introduced to me by a person who – during that that already unstable segment of my life – caused me a great deal of pain. Initially I thought that it was only harm that this person contributed to my life, and it was only with retrospective eyes that I was later able to see the wondrous gift that they – in fact – bestowed upon me. That gift was a song, and that song was ‘Bubble Toes’.
I admit, though I liked the song, I didn’t fall instantly in love. It wasn’t even until I heard ‘Fortunate Fool’ that I felt the first blossom of infatuation. I ran out the next day and bought myself copies of ‘Brushfire Fairytales’ and ‘On and On’. As my dark days went ‘on and on’ I found myself turning away from my more typical playlists of the time; songs generally ranging from angry to depressing in nature; and started listening to your music on an almost continuous loop. By the time ‘In Between Dreams’ was released, I was already on my way to a healthier – somewhat saner – existence, but that one CD did more for me than I can even begin to convey. Nearly every track on that disk seemed to be speaking directly to me; the songs somehow connecting with a lot of the things I was going through; and your tunes helped to move my feet (and heart) forward in an attempt to reach out, reach up and grab hold of life. I was finally head-over-heels in love with your unique brand of music and I had your every song on my MP3 player – which I never left home without – so that anytime I needed a lift, you were there for me.
I recognize that it was something deep inside me that threw the switch and began the change, but in some strange way that might not make a lot of sense; certainly no one I know would get it; you helped me to help myself, and I will be forever grateful. Your music was the soundtrack playing eternally in the background of my time of revivification, and has continued to be my go-to tunes anytime I need a boost.
In closing, I’d like to thank you for giving me a handle hold in the world when I needed one most. If not for your personal drive to be an original, I don’t know what I would have done during my dark days.