A blog about whatever randomosity my fevered mind conceives.

A Beggar’s Tale

I am a man of few words

For I’m too hungry now to speak…

There’s whiskey rotting in my veins

And my spirit’s growing weak.

This tale began so long ago

When I was still a tiny lad;

You can blame it on my ma and pa

Or on all the things that I’ve don’t bad.

The truth in all its sadness is

That some are destined from their birth

To be that part of society

That does not have a worth.

So I sit here on the sidewalk

And I choke upon your greed,

Since none of you did notice me

When I still had the strength to plead.

When you’ve dared to even look my way

It’s oft to point and stare,

And when you’ve eyed me here in misery

You’ve turned away without a care.

Sometimes you’ll throw down your coins

And believe that you’ve done good

A few of you will stop to wonder,

If you’re doing all you should…

But in the end, it stays the same;

You go home to your warm beds.

In the end, I sit here freezing;

My image fading in your heads.

You tell yourselves it’s not your fault

That I sit stewing in cheap wine,

But just a twist of fate could change it

And your life – it could be mine.

So do not think I chose this life –

That these were my childhood dreams –

Don’t assume you know the whole truth

And that all is what it seems.

For in my chest, there beats a heart

Like every other man.

I did not set out to be this way –

This was not my master plan.

I made mistakes, then made some more;

I believed I did not matter;

And any hope I ever held

I dropped, and watched it shatter.

To you, I’ll never mean a thing;

I’m nothing but a pest;

But even when I’m dead and gone

You’re not apt to find rest…

Since mine is just another face

To line this city wall

And the moment that I pass away

One of you is like to fall.

So don’t you sit and pass your judgment,

Lest you’re the next to take this place

For we are all imperfect humans

And you too can fall from grace.


33 responses

  1. liking this…

    March 30, 2012 at 9:28 am

    • Ah, thanks Dean!

      March 30, 2012 at 10:03 am

      • always welcome, Robin

        March 30, 2012 at 10:21 am

  2. Nicely penned!

    March 30, 2012 at 3:33 pm

  3. You RULE!

    March 31, 2012 at 2:59 am

    • lol why, thank you again! 🙂

      March 31, 2012 at 9:45 am

  4. Beautiful man. You work amazes me every time.

    One question, what does this line mean? “Or on all the things that I’ve don’t bad.”

    April 1, 2012 at 9:07 am

    • like, mistakes he’s made, bad choices… stuff like that. I’m not fond of the line… I have hated pretty much everything I’ve written lately.

      April 1, 2012 at 9:08 am

      • I like the poem, I do. I just don’t get that one line. Lol.

        April 1, 2012 at 9:11 am

      • Oh dude, you have NO idea how hard it’s been for me to get anything to gel lately. Everything I’ve been writing has had like one line in it that keeps it from going in the ‘landfill’ folder, but no matter how much time I put in I can’t seem to make them quite right.

        April 1, 2012 at 9:13 am

      • Dude, I totally understand. I haven’t been able to write at all. I mean AT ALL. I keep coming up with these amazing verses, four lines at a time, but that’s all there is, I can never follow up.

        Maybe you just need to some distance, and re-visit later or something. I’ve heard that helps.

        April 1, 2012 at 9:16 am

      • Ya it does sometimes. I go through bouts of this from time to time – it’s nothing new. I’ll just keep scribbling down everything that pops into my head and eventually I’ll work my way back to stuff I actually don’t hate again. In the meantime, I’ll just have to deal with a bunch of partially finished projects that I mostly hate, some random – rather disjointed – musings and a lot of poetry that pretty much sucks LOL.
        I’m actually thinking that I’ll put everythign I’ve been working on on hold for awhile and start on a brand new project that seems like it might be fun.

        April 1, 2012 at 9:19 am

      • Aww. I’m sure it’s not as bad you’re making it out to be. I love EVERYTHING that you’ve posted so far. I mean, seriously. I’m not trying to flatter you or anything, I’m just being honest. Your work is AMAZINGLY good.

        Starting a new project sounds like FUN!

        I’m thinking of doing a bit of coffee shopping tomorrow so that I can finally sit down and write something new. I hate publishing old work.

        April 1, 2012 at 9:30 am

      • Ya… I have a ton of old stuff I could delve into if need be, but I really don’t like doing that. I am thinking about reposting some of my very first posts (the ones that never even saw traffic lol) and if I stay in this rut long, I might have to do that. Hopefully though, my stubbornness will win out and I’ll get back on track soon.
        Thanks for saying so luv… I know sometimes I’m a little too critical of my own writing. A new project (and a break from working on my book until this passes) might be just what I need. I can’t wait to read about all that you’ve been up to lately!!!

        April 1, 2012 at 9:34 am

      • I’m sure you’ll break out of the doldrums soon. You always do. 🙂

        Lol. I’m trying to get my brain to focus so that I can figure out how I want to go about my tourist tales, but my brain isn’t responding. I hear zip, nada, nothing. Kill me now. GAH.

        April 1, 2012 at 9:42 am

      • ACK!!! Y’know what I think it is? Well, I guess you’re not going through a seasonal change there, are you? For me at least, I think it’s the transition between winter and spring… I often get a little off course at this time of year and again at the switch between autumn and winter. The doldrums – at least – only seem to be effecting my inner writer, which is good.
        Your mind will start putting things back together for you soon too… you’ve been so damn busy it’s no wonder you’re a little off track with the writing thing right now.

        April 1, 2012 at 9:46 am

      • Nope. No season change. I actually think it’s the other way around for me. I need change to be inspired. Once I go back to Delhi, I’ll be fine. They actually have 4 distinct seasons in that city (Thank god!).

        Just because I’ve been busy is no excuse! I’ll always be busy with one thing or the other, such is life. 😛 I need to get my head on straight, and fast!

        April 1, 2012 at 10:23 am

      • hehe straight heads are SO boring! For me the reason I get a little out of focus during season changes is because the change is slow… I get excited for the new stuff and want it to happen all at once, and when it goes slow I just feel like I’m waiting too long and start bouncing off the walls a bit. I NEED some new inspiration… like desperately. I want to be out and about and people watching and drinking coffee on patios and camping and fishing and hiking and all kinds of other crap lol. I’m dying for that flick of the switch that sends my brain back into the good kind of overdrive, because right now I find my own thoughts to be boring as hell, so when I write them out, I’m like ‘bletch!’.
        Busy is good… when you do have more time you’ll have a crap load to write about. And ya, life does tend to stay busy, but there are times when we have more lulls and gaps of time to fill up with stuff like writing and whatnot.

        April 1, 2012 at 10:30 am

      • I should rephrase, I need to twist my head on, just the way I like it. 😛

        Aaah. Impatience? 😛 I would say that you should enjoy and savor every moment, but I’d just be a hypocrite. I hate it when things move slow. Blah.

        I completely understand the part of your own thoughts being as boring as hell. Even my alter egos aren’t fighting anymore. I COUNT on them to keep me entertained. Blah. Useless at the one thing they’re good at.

        Here’s to hoping. I really want that pen to hit the paper soon, AND MAKE SENSE.

        April 1, 2012 at 10:39 am

      • Ah, I have moments when I kick ass at savouring the moment… other moments when I can’t help but bouncing up and down like a little kid on a sugar high.
        LMAO and dude, I spend a good part of each day daydreaming about various things… even my daydreams are rather grey lately. Nothing crazy going on, no good arguments between me and my other mes either. What the hell??? How am I supposed to interest people with my writing when I can’t even interest myself right now LOL!
        Oh well… things will work themselves out, they always do.

        April 1, 2012 at 10:43 am

      • My daydreaming have been AMAZING the past few days. The people I day dream about, on the other hand, are people I want to keep away from me. *sigh* I still indulge though. I act like a lazy moron and just give in. It’s all too tempting.

        My point exactly! I normally get most of inspiration from the arguments blowing up in my head, but since there’s nothing going on, I feel so lost!

        Here’s to hoping. *sigh*

        April 1, 2012 at 10:52 am

      • Hmm… maybe we should just trade off a few of our personalities… see if we can’t get a fight going from the change 😛

        April 1, 2012 at 10:59 am

      • Oooo. That might just work you know!

        April 1, 2012 at 11:12 am

      • Couldn’t hurt right? But… how do we go about a partial personality transplant exactly?

        April 1, 2012 at 11:14 am

      • …Umm. Try making the exchange telepathically?

        April 1, 2012 at 11:17 am

      • Heh! There ya go; brilliant! Now… only if either one of us had an ounce of focus at the moment, we might be able to achieve such a feat!

        April 1, 2012 at 11:19 am

      • Did you get her?
        I’m still waiting on my end….

        April 1, 2012 at 11:31 am

      • lmao oops… I got sidetracked and missed the delivery! Damn it all to hell!

        April 1, 2012 at 11:35 am

      • Hahaha. We need seriously need more focus!

        April 1, 2012 at 11:53 am

      • I know! I almost wish I still smoked pot… least I could veg out and just calm the hell down for awhlie lol

        April 1, 2012 at 11:54 am

      • I swear man. I was JUST thinking that, it’s taking a whole lot of will power for me to not reach for that phone.

        April 1, 2012 at 12:15 pm

      • haha roh oh

        April 1, 2012 at 12:18 pm

  5. Great work as always! 🙂

    April 14, 2012 at 1:08 am

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